Tuesday, January 4, 2011

around

We're still around.  Just trying to make it through the day.

Today I took back a bunch of stuff Travis and I had bought (outfits mostly).  A good friend of mine came over yesterday and helped pack up all the baby stuff.  And she cried with me, and reminded me that the next time I saw all this we would be happy because it'd mean that we have another baby.

Thank you all for your kind comments, prayers, and words of encouragement and support.

I've gotten through today without crying (even taking stuff back- but we kinda lied, to help me get through it).  I'll try to write what has gone on the last 4 days, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. 

But for now, we're here, and we're together, and we're not letting this be the end of our story.

OUR STORY ISN'T OVER YET!

18 comments:

  1. You are right...your story is NOT over!!
    I'm so happy you are doing well. We have been thinking about you lots and praying that you are finding strength in one another.

    When I went back to the main page and saw you posted I had goosebumps from head to toe!!

    Keep your chin up, love!

    Sending hugs from afar!!

    www.roadtoreproduction.com

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  2. So so happy to hear from you. I have thought of you constantly this last few days. I suspect moving on will be a one step forward two steps back process. Please know you can always reach out for support from the blog world.

    Ok,bed time for me. :)

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  3. I still have no words, but I do have *hugs* and plenty of them!

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  4. stay strong. your doing great.

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  5. I am so glad to see you post! I was so worried about you. You are RIGHT, your story is NOT over. I am so sorry you're enduring this, but if you imagine your life as a journey to your baby, you have just crossed a huge hurdle standing in the way of you and your little one. It was a sucky, crappy hurdle and now you're a huge leap closer. I am continuing to think of you and pray for you. Sending lots of hugs.

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  6. You are so right. Your story isn't over yet! I'm thinking about you and praying that the forever match for you guys is just around the corner.

    xoxox

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  7. I am amazed by your strength. Hoping that each day gets a little better for you.

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  8. I am so glad you are being strong and not giving up.... God has a plan that is far greater than you will ever expect now and I will keep you in our prayers :) J

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  9. I've been thinking about you! Can;t imagine how hard it is to cope with this setback and loss. But it isn't the end of your story. I know it probably doesn't help now, but it means that your baby is still out there waiting for you.

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  10. Oh Jenn, I'm so glad you're back. This has been awful but you will endure through this, because you are strong and determined to have your family. Let yourself grieve this, it is a loss, no doubt about it. Cry, scream, yell, tell people 'upstairs' that you're ticked. Do whatever you need to do. We'll all be here waiting for you to cheer you on and pick you up. I missed you and have been so worried for you. I'm glad that you found your way back to your blog. Keep writing...it will help. And then you will fight back like nobody's business!!! xo

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  11. You're absolutely right. Your story isn't over yet.

    (((HUGS))) to you. To say that you've been in my thoughts is an understatement.

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  12. If you received a nickel for every good thought sent your way in the past week (or more), I bet you'd be a millionaire several times over.

    Just add my thoughts to the wonderfully overflowing bucket.

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  13. Nope not over yet! You are more together than me. We had a newborn foster baby in our house for two days then had to give her back. I have just shut the door to the nursery. That was 5-6 weeks ago, not really counting, but I think I need to clean the room up soon.

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  14. Sorry so late been behind on blogs since the holidays.
    Sending you huge hugs. Glad for good friends to help you through this terrible time.

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  15. You are right. Your story is so not over! There is a next chapter, and it is going to be a good one, and you will see why this bad chapter happened. Love to you.

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  16. My heart hurts for you and your experience. As a future adoptive parent I have to believe that everything will work out for us and I believe that it will work out for you too. Wishing you all the best in your journey.

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