Back to us

I realized that today, that my husband and I are slowly getting back to 'us'.

For so long, our life has revolved around cycle days, ultra sounds, injections, 2ww, positive tests, and tears. 

We went to the pool today with some friends (who are also neighbors-our subdivision has a pool).  We all had fun, but eventually everyone left, and it was just Travis and I.  We sat on the lounge chairs and talked.  We laughed.  We made some plans for our future. 

I guess the one thing about adoption is that we know eventually we will be placed with a baby.  Our first match might fall through, and maybe our second, or third.  But... eventually we will have a baby.  That is something that my body could never guarantee us.  And that makes us happy.  Really, really happy.

I asked him what he was looking forward to once we had a baby, and he said taking them to our parents, and laying with them on the couch... but his final reason on the list (I may or may not have forced, nagged, asked him to give me 10 things...) was that he can't wait to see me so happy.

We had brought up water bottles and animal crackers to snack on, and as we were sitting there talking, and he said "I like them better soggy"... I just looked at him, and he reminded me of the time that he substituted in the 4 year old Sunday school class at church... a little boy had his cup of water and shoved all his animal crackers in it.  Travis asked him why he did it, and he told him "they are better when they are soggy".  Travis tried it with him, and agreed.  I *heart* my husband.... and all his little things that make me laugh!

We enjoyed our time together talking, and walking home holding hands, and making dinner together.

Tonight we were 'us', the way I love 'us'.