Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Distraction

I'm writing this post as a distraction from what I really need to be doing... writing Isaac's birthparents a letter.

I'm so torn.  This is the first letter we don't have to write. Per our agreement before placement, we were only required to write to them 5 times in the first year after placement.  Our agency has been less then steller with any kind of contact- going either direction.  They basically said, "Well, that's all you have to do".  I wrote about it here.

We just aren't ok with not writing anything, but this letter is hard.  He's changing so much. He's not a baby anymore... he's becoming a little man.  He has lots of words, and expressions, and opinions.  He's also going to be a big brother.

I'm not sure how to write about that.  I'm still not sure how I feel about it.  It's still surreal.  Like things can change any day.  But, sending them pictures of our holiday celebrations, there will be no denying that I'm pregnant.  Which is fine.  I guess.  Travis reminded me that they aren't reading the letters in real time anyways, who knows when they'll finally request to see them.  That's true.

But still.  It feels awkward, though I'm not sure if we shared that we adopted a second baby would feel any different.

It's just something I've gotta get over... so I guess I'll just get to writing!  But not before I post some of my recent favorite's.


Isaac 'helping' me put clothes in the dryer. I figure this will come in handy in a few months!

He is ALL BOY!!!

On a short day trip, sitting in Daddy's lap while we got gas.

12 comments:

  1. We struggled with this issue as well. End the end we decided to set up a private blog that only we and the birth parents have access to. We post once a month and we kind of act as thought it's a journal of her milestones that we are writing directly to her. Kind of a this is your life type of thing. We post pictures and little funny stories about what she's up to. We've found that it works for us because if the birth parents want to peak in on what she's up to they can and if they don't feel up to it they don't have to. In the end, it will be a great keepsake for the baby hopefully. Just an idea. :)

    Congratulations again...I'm so happy for you and your growing family.

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  2. Great idea above!

    We also set up a private email address the only our birthmother knows (soon the birthfather will). We communicate using it!

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  3. Thank you for posting - I think of you often. :)
    Not sure if you know about my non-private blog (www.lateforaveryimportantpregnancy.wordpress.com just in case).
    I understand how strange it must be to share your news of pregnancy...but, if Isaac's adoptive parents love him and want the best for him (and I am sure that they do or they would not have given him up to you), I imagine they will be thrilled that he will get to be a big brother and have the family life they likely hope for him.
    I am so glad all is going so well with your pregnancy and that you are feeling good.
    Love,
    Maddy

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