Distraction

I'm writing this post as a distraction from what I really need to be doing... writing Isaac's birthparents a letter.

I'm so torn.  This is the first letter we don't have to write. Per our agreement before placement, we were only required to write to them 5 times in the first year after placement.  Our agency has been less then steller with any kind of contact- going either direction.  They basically said, "Well, that's all you have to do".  I wrote about it here.

We just aren't ok with not writing anything, but this letter is hard.  He's changing so much. He's not a baby anymore... he's becoming a little man.  He has lots of words, and expressions, and opinions.  He's also going to be a big brother.

I'm not sure how to write about that.  I'm still not sure how I feel about it.  It's still surreal.  Like things can change any day.  But, sending them pictures of our holiday celebrations, there will be no denying that I'm pregnant.  Which is fine.  I guess.  Travis reminded me that they aren't reading the letters in real time anyways, who knows when they'll finally request to see them.  That's true.

But still.  It feels awkward, though I'm not sure if we shared that we adopted a second baby would feel any different.

It's just something I've gotta get over... so I guess I'll just get to writing!  But not before I post some of my recent favorite's.

Isaac 'helping' me put clothes in the dryer. I figure this will come in handy in a few months!

He is ALL BOY!!!

On a short day trip, sitting in Daddy's lap while we got gas.