Working some things out

We've been able to work some things out with the insurance, the doctor they wanted us to go see was able to sneak us in last Friday, and we had surgery set for yesterday.  I got a call on Monday saying that they would have to reschedule because he didn't have enough patients to fill up his time slot in the OR.  I was so frustrated, I explained that this was the SECOND time that it would be rescheduled, and it wasn't my problem he didn't have enough patients.  

They ended up squeezing us in tomorrow.  I think.  I'm waiting for them to call and drop him off that list, but it's after 5, so hopefully, that means we're good to go...

Except, we have had a hellish head cold in our house.  First Trav had it, then me, and yesterday Isaac.  Last night was rough for him, which was rough for momma.  He's run a low grade fever all day, but is still eating fine.  If it affects him like it affected us, then today should have been the worst, and tomorrow he'll feel much better.  We're crossing our fingers, and just planning on showing up tomorrow.  Hopefully it won't stop the surgery. It's so short of a procedure, so I'm hoping it won't.  My best friend said that all three of her kids were sick when they had tubes put in... which is why they had tube put in, because they were constantly sick.  So, here's hoping!

Last night as we were getting Isaac ready for bed, he was in the bath and I had a moment.  You know, the 'Holy shit, I'm a Mom" moment.  They used to happen all the time, when we first brought him home, but he has become so much a part of our life, that they are more infrequent now.

For so many years, my heart ached for a child.  So many prayers were set, so many tears.  It seems so unreal that those prayers have been answered.  My dream to be a mother had come true.

There was some talk on Twitter about being at home with babies or working.  I honestly thought that after the 60 days that one of us had to stay home with him required by our agency were up, I'd be back to working, at least part time.  I had no idea that I would love being at home with him so much.  I've enjoyed the routine we've gotten into.

I feel like in the past few months, my eyes have been opened, to the amazing mothers around me.  We all have our own way of doing things.

Some of us work, some of us don't.
Some of us breast feed, some of us don't.
Some of us co sleep, some of us don't.
Some of us use disposables, some of us cloth diaper.
Some of us us baby food in a jar, some of us make our own.

But we are all mothers.  We all love our children with every fiber of our being.  We all are awesome at what WE do for OUR family.

And I'm blessed to be his mother!

Failure To Thrive

We have officially had this label put on Isaac.

The doctor told me that she knows it sounds scary, and doesn't mean he's going to shrivel up and blow away, but that instead it will be helpful to get the services and therapy he needs (especially fighting with insurance).

Speaking of insurance, I'm grateful we have it.  However, I'm so dang frustrated! With us being on recruiting duty, there aren't a ton of providers that are 'in network', or the one's in network don't specialize in pediatrics.  I feel like I'm constantly tracking down referrals and authorizations.  We were finally assigned a case manager, so hopefully she can help smooth the path, and make it easier to get what we need.

Even though I know he's fine.  And that we're doing everything we can for him.. I'm scared.  I just want what's best for him, and I want him better.  If our insurance would get their shit together, it would be much appreciated!

We have ear tube surgery this Thursday (he had 4 ear infections in 10 weeks), but its with an out of network provider that somehow got switched from being authorized, to point of service, meaning we have to pay 50% of the surgery.  I'm calling tomorrow to see what the total cost would be, to see if we can swing it.  It might be better then having to go to an in network provider and waiting a month for the initial appointment then 2-4 weeks for surgery.

I must say, he still is my happy boy!  And because everything is better when I see his smile, I'll let you have some moments of happy too!  Some of my favorite recent shots of him!

Operation Organization!

A friend of mine has made it a goal to get through the clutter in her house, and has invited us all to clean and organize along with her!

To find out more about the project Operation Organization, go check out her post here, and link up!

http://ahokieandacav.blogspot.com/2012/02/operation-organization.html

I'm late... as always... but I'll be doing most of my 'blogging' about it over here, on my 'house' blog!  I've uploaded my 'intro' video over there!

A whole month

Wow, I went an entire month without posting... I guess so much has happened since the last time.

We went to court to get the transfer of custody.  We then started the 6 months, and should finalize right before he turns one!!

We continued to struggle with his eating.
We've gotten referred out to to a pediatric ENT, who will be putting tubes in the next week.
He had an upper GI done, which showed no refulx, and everything else normal, so no answers there.
We will be seeing a feeding therapist at the end of the month to help on that side too.

He continues to blow us away with the thing's he's doing!  He is doing so well sitting up, and loves playing with toys in front of him.

It's been an interesting and trying month, but we're getting through it, and hopefully within the next month, we'll have some better answers.